Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Dear Me,

Lately, I have noticed that you're getting less patient, more temperamental, and not as tranquil as you've always prided yourself to be. You were always pretty much the cool, calm and collected type, so what's the big deal?

Are you letting the heat of the summer get to you? I don't think so, because you love sunshine. It's been all blue skies and white clouds and radiating warmth for the most part. Granted, the damn AC has been running crazy on the public transit, and sometimes it gets a bit unbearable, but it hasn't been as bad as we thought it would have been, right?

Then again, I wonder if you've been letting yourself relish in the beauty of nature as much as you used to. Once, you'd be enraptured like a child with a set of keys, with just the beauty of a tree, the ways the clouds looked in the distance and the joy of serene moments in the early mornings.

You haven't been listening to music in a very long time. Maybe it's time to find your music player and get a good set of ear-buds and lose yourself in music again. You are, after all a child of music, and your heart and mind gets swept away into a magical world where almost nothing else but music could take you. Remember those nights as a child, when you had no clue at all about the classical music you'd tune into with your annoying alarm clock? The magic the orchestra could intone as you let yourself go to sleep. Haha, remember the magic of putting in that old Beauty & The Beast audio tape and listening to the music as you read until your eyes got tired and you drifted off to sleep? Or those love songs from movies, where you'd daydream about your Prince Charming? Or finding trance, and getting lost in the enigma of the heart and soul? Or those awesome songs that remind you of everything you've got to be thankful for?

Why have you gotten so irked and temperamental? You're the one who always carried around "Live love laugh" like a crown. You're the one who loves to be strong for others and be full of joy! You were all about cherry blossoms, babies' gummy smiles, fuzzy socks, cotton candy. You believed that "life" needed an exclamation mark. Listen, forget past tense. You ARE. We need this happy go lucky kiddo you've always been back. No, age is just a number. Forget about people just giving you looks, or making you feel foolish when you want to be funny or random. Stop getting hurt when people say stuff. You're far beyond just silly remarks and words of ridicule. Haven't you learnt by now?

Breathe. Take a walk when you need to. A 2 minute break is worth saving a day's headache. Peace, love, happiness. Life is more than just worrying all the time. Don't keep waiting for someone else to be there for you, you're strong enough to be strong for yourself and for the people you care for. You can do it, babes.

Remember what you always said. Be happy for this moment, this moment is your life ♥

Love always,

Me.