Friday, July 06, 2012

Choti Khushiyan

Even when we think we've given up, it goes two ways. Either we despair because of our failure, or we stop caring entirely. The first leads us to the understanding that we still want something. We have a hope and it has not become fruitful. Despair is the lack of faith. Despair is the lack of faith, not hope. Because, despair itself stems from the existence of hope. As long as that hope exists will despair equally exist. 

Sometimes we let the ball drop and feel that once it has, it's all shattered in pieces that can never be put together again. And yet, we're still here, with or without the ball. Our perception of life because distorted when we try to look through these very same broken pieces. Something like those funny mirrors in those clown houses where you're looking at yourself, but now you're shorter, fatter, thinner and taller.

You're looking at yourself, but is this really you? Maybe what you've become so focussed on isn't what you should be looking at. The more you try to analyse, the more it becomes unravelled. And yet, we continue to try. Do we fear for losing something, and hence hold on all the more tighter? Are we building expectations that are exceeding an ability to manifest into reality? Are we underestimating ourselves or setting ourselves up for our own failure? Are we forgetting to sit back and embrace the little things that make up the whole, looking at the broken tree and forgetting the rest of the forest? 

Something in human nature gears our mindset to prioritizing the negative aspects of our lives more than the positive. One bad experiences eclipses the light we get from everything else in life. Why do the things which pull us down literally outweigh all the good things which should uplift us?

My rationalization side tells me:  "Because, IQ, this is the most important part of your life, and you can't take the insecurities and hardships which happen regarding it."

Today one of my friends told me, when I was pulling myself back into my shell, that friends flow with the flow. He got out his hammer and chisel. Yesterday, another put on a pink dupatta and, in his own way, cheered me up in the midst of my misery. One very special girl put up with me saying something in frustration and tried her best to make things alright again. And my bestest friend in the entire world made sure I understood that if I dropped the ball, he'd be there to catch it. How can I be selfish enough to let myself pull not just myself, but these awesome friends down as well?

And, yo, I'm missing all of them a lot as I write this. If I don't let you know often enough with my recent mood, you all are super special to me. 

The oddest thing is, I started this post meaning to inspire myself by just listing out the little things I am thankful for, hence the title. It's something I do once in awhile to slap myself awake and smell the roses. Listing things like, beautiful blue skies, enjoying my iced coffee, or just sitting alone. But oddly, I didn't have to make a list.  I think I already said what is making life at the moment worth it all.

Thank you ♥


18 comments:

  1. Sometimes we get so caught up in our own lives, we tend to forget about our friends who've been there with us the whole way through.

    But, somewhere in us, there's gratitude and appreciation for them, it's just that we don't say it aloud.

    Yesterday, I said thank you a friend just for being there! ☺ Which I feel, I should do more often.

    And yeah, same thing happens to me. I start off somewhere, and I end up in a totally different topic.

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  2. oi pagal ure not letting any frnd down ... its our responsibility to get u out of your shell .... "keeps hammering away at the chisel"

    like i told one of my favorite ppl once ...we create walls not to keep ppl out but to see who cares enuff to break them down :L

    she was(is) one in a million and so are you :L

    btw who was the guy with the pink dupaatta .. i kinda missed that circus didnt i :L

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    1. I don't like that wall quote :P I've had one too many "friends" use it not knowing that they sometimes need to do the breaking and climbing also. It can't happen just one way :)

      One in a million huh :P So in your lifetime you'll be meeting 7 thousand special "one in a millions" huh :P It's okay ..not every day that a murgi baba meets steak baba :D

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    2. err ... ur frnds ALWAYS need to do the breaking and climbing of da walls that u put up .. thats how it works ... hence my quote :L

      :O 7 thousand special "one in a millions " ... im wayyyyyyyyyy behind ... ive only met abt 10 so far :L

      technically you're 10 in 10 million :L

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    3. LOL But I should be equally as willing na, (and I am) that's all I meant :P (I didn't like that quote because of the person using it to excuse their own attempts at never trying..)

      I'm going to go cook now... and you mister, and everyone else, are invited :P

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    4. karhai gosht or roghan josh ? then im coming over :L

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    5. Paneer tikka, bhindi masala, dum aloo, pulav :P so now you're not, I guess :P

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    6. hmmm im hungry after hearing that :L

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    7. err ... im still coming over :P

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  3. OMG! The bird at the end of Supercalifragilisticsexyalidocious!!!!

    Now that's supercalifragilisticsexyalidocious!


    I love it! Woohooo! Yayy ☺

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    1. Yes ♥ I've always acquainted the dove to myself lol.... and that's what I felt was missing still =] Thanks! :D

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  4. pink dupaattaa lol that was rinka :P:P I LOVE U SIS AND ME IS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU !!!♥☺♥☺♥☺!!

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    1. :) I love you too babes dear hun love ♥

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  5. Dil hai chhota sa,chhoti si aasha,masti bhare mann ki bholi si aasha. Chaand taaron se milne ki aasha.. aasmanoon mein urne ki aasha .....=]

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